I have been exceedingly happy and full of joy with life lately. Sure there are things out there that are a source of great stress for me, but over the course of life I’ve learned to manage the stress and get everything done.
There are however certain events that cause someone (me) to begin to prayerfully discern if they are still needed in particular ministries. I am involved in several, and I’ve felt a tug to get involved in one or two more, however before I get involved in anything else something is going to have to give. And so I have prayerfully begun to discern where it is that God wants me, where would my time and talents be the most beneficial, and all that jazz. Any extra prayers for my being able to hear and listen to the will of God would be great.
I feel almost as if I’m at a crossroads of sorts, and I don’t want to let anyone down, but I know that I’m going to have to do what is best for me and my family.
O creator past all telling,
you have appointed from the treasures of your wisdom
the hierarchies of angels,
disposing them in wondrous order
above the bright heavens,
and have so beautifully set out all parts of the universe.
You we call the true fount of wisdom
and the noble origin of all things.
Be pleased to shed
on the darkness of mind in which I was born,
The twofold beam of your light
and warmth to dispel my ignorance and sin.
You make eloquent the tongues of children.
Then instruct my speech
and touch my lips with graciousness.
Make me keen to understand, quick to learn,
able to remember;
make me delicate to interpret and ready to speak.
Guide my going in and going forward,
lead home my going forth.
You are true God and true man,
and live for ever and ever.
–St Thomas Aquinas, 1225-74